love love love

if you fill your days with love you will have an amazing day! i try to see through the eyes of my son he seems to love every little thing.  even when i hear something i do not like or things do not go my way i can turn to him for a new outlook on life and how to love more.  children are such a blessing allowing us to learn again to think as we once did in our youth

life is difficult love is simple?

this is so true...no matter what i always love and forgive everyone.  my sons father treats me badly at times by ignoring me and not spendign time with our son and not helping with his financial needs.  no matte what i forgive him and love him uncondtionaly.  we are not dating and do not live together.  at times it hurst my heart but i always remember God wants me to forgive him and love him anyways.  trust me at times it is hard but life is definately hard, but love is the simple.  if  you lose love and do not forgive people and hold grudges you are only hurting yourself.  by dwelling on the negative and be in misery you are losing your loving self.  i have to walk away and stay away from him for awhile when i need to.  this way i do not intentionally allow myself to be hurt.  now there are times he is the most amazing man and father and those times i remember and cherish.  there are also time i hurt him.  i am human and not perfect either.  so i take it in with a grain of salt and i pray.  i expect nothing from him and i do not expect him to change, i accept him how he is and love him for who he is not what he does.  deep down his soul is gentle and loving. his life is stressful as is everyones. i cherish the good and forgive the bad.  now i am a recovering addict so i cannot allow myself to be hurt too bad from him as it will risk my sobreity.  i recently helped him with court, literally saved his life and have done so much to show him my love.  which i chose to do out of love.  i have thought about moving in for our son so we can be a family?  the thing is he doesnt work, he doesnt cook, clean, or anything really.  the problem i am realizing is that i am finally getting me time because my son started preschool and i get 4 hours a day for myself.  now his father is like a big kid, that i would have to take care of, more work for me? well i just do not want that for me and i am going to be selfish for now and say no.  if maybe he shows me that he appreciates the things i do, is willing to help out and put in some effort i would reconsider.  so i will continue loving life and enjoying it to the fullest!  love and forgive always and forever.  i guess i needed to get all that off my chest, thanks for listening